when I was having break after church...

thoughts of the day.
Never mind. Better stop crapping. Arh.
Here I go again, wasiting paper, money and time.
Loneliness, isolation. My uber hear. Though the crown surrounds, the atphosphere of loneliness lingers. Bitting into me, shrouding me, choking me till that oxygen is sparse, space is none.
Unfamiliar faces, are abundant, the expression...
There I am, keeping myself back into the shell., Shutting off the lights, expelling any intruders. Emitting the flair and aura of "dao-ness".
double encounter.
The mouth is shut, through words I express, The mind is blank, my mouth is dry.
Yes. I dont wish to talk.
Someone have to break the baricade that I am constantly building up.
Sorry to my victims.
Perhaps all I need is just a drink.
Well, here I go...



thoughts...
heart warmed by music.
addicted to loose my breathe and rhythm of the night.
fustrated for not getting contacts.
worried by studies and campfire.

aih.



time to blog after the new year.

chain of memories, deep thoughts running through my mind. The old to "discharge", the new to introduce.

First got into 3/6, then went to the camp, bonded with them, did a blardy cheer, class cheer what not what not... and guess what happened?

"Hey Jonathan, I cannot find your name in my list anywhere. You should be in 3/5."

Whee. Just like that I got blown off. All the time, effort, sleep, brain wracking... All can be thrown into the drain... Arh.
Then got thrown to Mr Ari. The great almighty man of words. Just like that I got convinced.(which I serious dont believe how he did it earlier now...) Go ask Kellynn. My points were just weak. He just kept on talking... on and on like a winding river that would never stop. Then that was it...

Arh. Even so, my dream class is still 3/6... T_T

Aih. Now that I found a "point" to poke him... BUAHAHA.
This time round I must get my script...

Oh well, I really hope that I can get into 3/6 again... If not I'll just take 1 step and a time...

Oh well, quoting from the "song" Titanic...

"The Lord of mighty hands knew the ship would never land..."

Why must it be me that gets switched. Cant they just let me stay in 3/6... Curse the scholars and ariana who switched from 3/5 to 3/6... =.=
Its enough.

This seriously sucks so badly.

jon, 16. 08/10/90, 23/12/04
ANDSS, CJC/1T32 and now in AJC.
LIKES choir, singing, art and food. i love chocolates and savoury stuff especially.
LOVES my God and His house, HopeChurch Singapore. servin' in NEA3 and CHOIR! ministry.

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